I am thankful on this thanksgiving for my children. My highlight of the week is always Sunday when I get to see my son. No matter how tough, sad, or difficult my week was, Braden always has the secret power to heal it all.
Emma, I know you dislike me but if it's one thing I can say, is don't let hate consume you like it did me because everyone can change..even me.
So for this thanksgiving, I thank you for the happiness we shared together when things were good and thank you for giving me such an amazing little boy. We may not have done a lot right, but we did make one beautiful little boy who is so smart and awesome.
Even if you never forgive me or respect me, I understand and will never allow hate in my heart for you ever again.
Lori, I apologize for speaking from.anger and saying things to indirectly hurt you without thinking about it. I remember what you said to me that day in my room when Emma moved out and your right, I want to not make those mistakes you did but I don't think you meant to make them because you are one of the strongest women I know with what you been through and I really look up to you with how you pushed forward so hard and made some pretty amazing accomplishments, and I appreciate having had you in my life for the time I did. Your right, about how I wasn't very smart and absent minded at times, when you said at least I had my looks lol, although at times I don't even see that. You are a great mother, grandma, and are so intelligent with all that medical stuff. Keeping in mind how influential my grandma maxine was in my life and the unconditional love she had for me no matter what mistakes I made.. she was always there for me and loved me.. and was literally the glue that held me together.. I know how important you are to Braden and how much you love him and I really hope he has that too if he ever goes through hard times, which I really really hope he never does. I'm glad he has you Lori, because there is just something irreplaceable about a grandmothers love.
Zac, thank you for being a positive male role model to my son, I can tell by pictures he loves you and you are also an important factor/person in his life. You are really lucky to have Emma in your life, despite what I said and done... she is an amazing person and I know she will make you really happy and has a tremendous amount of love you both deserve to share together.
I only ask a couple simple things, just keep in mind I am trying very hard to get on top of things so I can pay my child support obligations. At first I was very scared about paying so much money, but if that's what you need me to help with then I respect and accept that and will pay it. I am going through.a.very painful hiring process to start my new.career, and the first visits I couldnt goto with braden was because I had to use the last bit of money I had to get to the interview and hiring process for this job. If I didn't have to pay that money to see braden for the one hour, I would have been able to see him. These past couple weeks I have done everything I can to save.enough for gas and the 30$ for his visit, and a little extra to get him a late birthday present. No lies, gimmicks, or joke.. im hurting financially to get going here so I can be responsible and take care of Braden and Zuri. I really am trying, I hope you believe that. If you could please have a little mercy and work with me when possible so I can see him, I would really really appreciate that because I want to see him so bad every week. He really makes this fight and struggle all worth it. I will pay you everything I owe, I don't want to goto jail.. I just want to have a good relationship with Braden because he means so much to me and the happiness I get when were together is everything I ever wanted.
I hope one day in the future I can earn yalls respect and prove that I have the potential to be a good person and dad. Thank you all for giving my son such a happy and loving family, he deserves nothing but the best.
Happy thanksgiving
